Friday, November 28, 2008

Thankful

There are so many things I still want...one huge one that I'll put aside for this blog.... instead...I want to take a minute to say what I'm truly thankful for. I have so much...so much....
I'm thankful for..
My Mom- who loves me, unconditionally, and is always my biggest supporter. She's taught me how to be a classy woman, how to give and love, and how to always hold your head up high
J-who has shown me the kind of man I want and deserve, who always has an ear, and gives more of himself than most of us could ever fathom
Nadia- again, who loves me unconditionally, who sees the best in me when I see the very worst, who tells me like it is, even when I might not be ready to hear it, who has shown me that 2 old ladies in rocking chairs reminiscing about 50 years ago is possible...
Ame- Who taught me to love myself first, who gives unconditonally, wants the best for me always, and is the St. Francis of our day
Anna- Her joy is contagious, a friend to the end. How rare it is to find someone who genuinely wants to know about you, and doesn't forget where you've come from
Dawn- always optimistic about my future and makes 4 hour conversations on a couch seem timeless
Kylie- reminds me each day of how amazing this world is
Tia- there is nothing I can't say to her...the perfect combination of tender comment and biting sarcasm when I need it. A confidante who you know loves you deeply
Said- despite the challenges, he reminds me each day how pure children are and how simple words that often go unstated can be the light in your day
Boo- Who is happy to see me. Regardless of the day...
Baskin Robbins- not for the ice cream, but for the robbery. Life is too damn short.
NYC-which makes me feel like I'm really living
Roberta- always genuinely interested in what you have to say
Twilight- which reminded me why I love to read and gives me hours of thoughtless peace.
Lindsay- her cards and heartfelt notes are unexpected and much appreciated surprises.
Dad-the uncanny ability to know a person upon first impression has rubbed off on me and has been one of the greatest gifts
Eharmony- who loves my friend almost as much as I do. Truly genuine...and someone I am lucky to call my friend
The Ex- it was a good run....and I still miss him... I'm thankful for knowing I deserve to be loved
My Ipod- from Billie Holiday to Easy E....it always has what I need
Pak- truly cares and cuddles when you need it. Stronger than she knows...
My Cousin Vinnie- who perseveres, and has a huge heart, and never forgets his roots
Grandad- for the penny hand, pink rubber bouncing balls, crabbing, crabballs, and peanut buter and jelly sandwiches in the living room over the cardboard beer trays with Lays chips. I felt more special than I've ever felt.
Colleen- her calmness is contagious. Who sees all children in the best of light and is the definition of someone who lets their child be who they really are
Norma Jean Baker- we all have big dreams and dark nightmares...but you push on through
Violetta- who is always honest with me...even when I don't want to hear it...and reminds me that I'm worth more than I give myself credit for
Uncle Ron- who talks to me after Tia has gone to bed and makes me feel like I belong there..and who loves me enough to allow me to move in.
Priscilla- who is genuine through and through. such a rare find and I'm lucky to call her my friend
Jae- who I can rely on. For anything. Any time.
Dane Cook- when I need to forget about troubles, there is always DJ Diddles
SATC- Too often do I hear lines that relate to my life playing in my head...and I Will Survive
Weight Watchers- who doesn't judge but celebrates and has given me the tools to know I can do what I set my mind to.
Christopher- always so happy to see me...which always catches me off guard
Absolut- sometimes you need to forget about the day
UMD- for making me my own person, not following someone else's footsteps
Grandma Marion- for making my mom feel loved like one in a million

Life's been good to me...

Playlist:
Oh My Nola- Harry Connick Jr
Live Your Life- T.I.
Michael- Antigone Rising
Fighter- Christina Aguilera
You Better Go Now- Billie Holiday

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Barack to the Future

As I was typing my last blog, the news was shared on TV

It is a great day for America.

I hope for a new country and a new sense of pride.

Black or White
Repub or Dem

Change is necessary!

...looking forward to the next 4 years!

Barack to the Future

It's still early.
There is no new president...yet.
But I felt the need to express my feelings about today.
My vote goes beyond skin color or celebrity endorsement.
It is about a new America.
I think that John McCain is an amazing man. In this election, while I've voted for Obama, I feel as though a new leaf will be turned regardless of the winner. I'm hopeful that CHANGE will occur...but Idon't feel as though it's a crapshoot....which is how I felt in 04.
But we've already made history...and hopefully will continue to make it.
I feel as though I've supported a candidate who speaks to me. A politician in the most positive of senses. Yes, he's still a politician. Yes, there is still room for him to show that he's pulled the wool over our little lamb eyes (as is with ANY vote). But I stand behind my vote. I feel very strongly that he is a man of integrity who can lead this country out of its dark place.
After leaving the polls I felt this overwhelming sense of "Did I make the right choice?" I had doubts... I see the positive in both sides.
But as I cast my vote, I felt a sense of pride and was giddy. My generation spoke up. I did my research. I listened. I ignored the opinion of my family members (who are my role models). I voted with my heart. I voted with that I felt was the best decision for me at this time.
Either way, change needs to happen. This is a pivotal point in our history.
I hear people say that we have so far to go w/race relations...
yet in 50 years...look how far we've come?
We still have a long ways to go...but Jesus..50 years is nothing...and we've come so far.
This election is not about race..
For me it is about two great men ready to change a dark spot in American history.
I feel proud to be a part of this election.
Maybe I'm Pollyannaing out on this one...but I don't think it's about race. I think it's about hope and change and the need to change the status quo.
While I feel blessed to be born in this country (and I never say blessed) I am not the America I know that we should and hope to be.
On another note...
I always feel incredibly sorry for the candidate who is not elected. I know they know it is a possibility but still. Your biggest goal in life comes to this.. That's gotta be incredibly hard.
Regardless of blue and red, you have to acknowledge that McCain has done his service and then some for our country. It is undeniable.